How?

In a week...

We'll be in London preparing for the fabulous wedding of Carrie and Simon!
Here they are a few years ago at Carrie's law school graduation.









And here they are now, engaged, in love, and looking very posh:




The wedding will be here:





And it's a very exciting affair, mostly because Carrie, Bekah, and I will be reuniting for the first time in a couple of years since




A lot has changed since then.

Like, Carrie is getting married!!!

Today, I feel...

Happy!

The past few weeks, I've felt like I've been on an emotional roller coaster. Some days I'm feeling light as a feather, and other days I'm stiff as a board...and everything in between. It's not because I'm crazy, I hope. It's more like I need to figure out what I'm doing with my life. Maybe it's my 30s creeping up on me.  Maybe Mercury is in retrograde.  Maybe I'm homesick.  Maybe I'm preg- NO.  Maybe it's the weather (it is extremely cold here still and it's April- a fact which I refuse to let Jason forget and he probably wants to kill me because of it).

I have noticed though, that the days I feel happy-happy-happy directly correlate to days that get started off with a nice hot yoga practice, followed by a yummy coffee, and are filled with sunshine and a taste of warmth in the air. These are the days that I am able to forget that I am in a PhD program, one that I might not want to be in anymore. These are the days where I catch a glimpse who who I really am, someone that I've increasingly lost sight of and traded in for a weird version of myself that does too much work, is worried, is self-conscious to speak in class, and wears too many hoodies.

I'd like to think that we are all on a journey to find the real person within ourselves, that which is the real you. The best version of yourself that somehow got lost along the way, like a child who wandered off in the grocery store: it's there, it needs to be found.  The best way to do this is to continue to do the things that feel like you. Do them, be happy, announce your name loudly over the intercom hoping that your true self will hear and come wandering back.

My husband runs 40 mile races now...does yours?

Jason enjoyed a nice little coffee time while I enjoyed Bikram Yoga Bend

The baby boy enjoyed a nap on the hotel bed

40 mile race course

The start. Jason is too nervous to even wave. 

They're off. See you in many hours!

At mile 10

Back into the woods again

Looking strong at mile 18

Then, it started snowing and I admitted to myself that I officially miss NC. Even if it is snowing pollen there right now.

My boo bringing it home at an amazing 5:38 for 40 miles!!

He tells us something about gnarly hills. I take a photo and pretend like I care. Just kidding. Sort. Of. 

All in all, we had a great lil trip to Bend/Sisters.

The things they come up with

There's a machine in our library that looks like this:

For a while, I thought it was a spaceship or a time machine.

Then, I realized that it's a scanner. You can place any document on the table (books especially) and scan them into a PDF document, and then email it to yourself!* Woah.

I can't imagine what it must have been like to be in graduate school before technology.

*Yes, this is as exciting as my life is right now...

Jeff Mangum: Man, Myth, Legend

Last night, jason and I had the pleasure of catching the legendary Jeff Mangum of Neutral Milk Hotel. He hadn't played these songs live in a long time, and it was amazing!

In an Aeroplane Over the Sea was a life changing album for me. I can remember listening to it over and over and over and over. The lyrics! The singing! The goodness!

Here's a little taste for you...

Spring is not Springing

Grrrrrrr

Last one on the boat

I've been instagramming and it's fun! Just like blogging, but with pictures that you get to make look all artsy and way less public than Facebook.

Me likey!

Here's some of my work-

That's right