Showing posts with label trying. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trying. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 6, 2015

I Never Learn...Or Do I?

When will I ever learn that extremism in any form is just no good? I've mentioned this several times before, most recently when I tried to do a juice cleanse this summer and felt like shit.
Well, this time I got it in my head that I would try to be paleo.

See here. Extremism at it best.
Basically, if you are Paleo you can only eat meat and vegetables. No grains, no alcohol, no sugar, no legumes. Not even rice, you guys.  My plan was to try this way of eating hardcore (i.e.- super strict for real real) for a month, and then return to a more balanced way of approaching food. Well, today is would-be Day 30 and  I can tell you that this whole thing barely lasted a week. I was drinking wine by Day 3, eating rice by Day 10, and I even ate a mini Twix on a particularly stressful day last week circa Day 25.  Normally I am a very healthy eater with the occasional indulgence of a biscuit, a cookie or some mac and cheese, so why would I do this to myself? Maybe it is the thrill of trying to do a new thing. Maybe I like to think I can impose some rigidity in my life. Maybe I like the feeling of breaking the rules, once I stop doing the rigid thing. Or maybe I'm supposed to keep falling off of the metaphorical wagon, so that I eventually learn the lesson that we don't need to be on wagons in the first place.

Like I said, I just never learn. It might even take 2 or 3 more fad "healthy" diet trends for me to remember that I learned this or never learned it. However, I'd like to suppose  that the "not learning" is really a part of the learning process. Trying new things, liking them or not liking them; it's a part of the journey to balance, moderation, and eventually contentment.

We live in a society that promotes extremism in myriad ways: in our jobs, in our play time, in our entertainment, and especially in our consumer habits. We're encouraged to go hard in almost everything that we do. What if instead we were encouraged to cultivate balance?


Tuesday, June 30, 2015

No AC

Normally the problem of no AC wouldn't really be a problem in Eugene like it would be in NC. However, no AC becomes a problem when the Northwest experiences an unprecedented heat wave with temps nearing 100 degrees.

When you have no AC you start to learn the ropes of keeping the house somewhat cool. Things like opening the windows at night but definitely not during the day, not cooking very much, closing the blinds, and not turning on any lights. I must admit this has taught me a few things, most notably, how to appreciate a dark house and how sweating in your house is quite different than sweating outside during a run or even in the hot room doing yoga.

I've grown accustomed to this view

Cool spot





Monday, June 8, 2015

I need it!

I day-dreamed that I had a pineapple dress. And now I totally need one. So, instead of grading my EDST 464 finals, I'm googling pineapple dresses.

Are you my pineapple dress?

Maybe it's you, classy picnic dress...

Maybe it's a pineapple romper

Or the subtle pineapple approach


Or maybe the not so subtle pineapple approach...


Saturday, May 9, 2015

Doing fun stuff

The sun is out and the pollen isn't (yet) so we've been trying to make the most of the nice days. Disc golf, Dexter with the dogs, slacklining, cooking out, beer drinking, tree climbing, doing handstands (and falling out...not pictured), and even a day trip to Portland today.

Jason "teeing off" at Alton Baker
Bringing along the dogs makes for a fun family trip
Dexter Lake
Jason slackin' and Viktor posin'
From a few weeks ago...a swoopy tree trunk makes for a good beer drinking ramp
climbing trees
Edie enjoys the scenery
our little spot
Slackline Tree Pose
Beautiful Angel
Harder than it looks
Ice Cream at Salt and Straw in Portland

Next week, North Carolina!

I. Can't. Wait.







Tuesday, May 5, 2015

I tried...

To take a picture of the beautiful beast with a flower in her hair.





She wasn't really feelin' it...




Thursday, March 19, 2015

Blogging about my blog, learning about life

A nice reminder of what an awesome ESL teacher I was

It's the calm before the storm, I feel. Starting March 31st I will be insanely busy for a 10 week stint. Between teaching a course at UO, supervising student teachers, working part time as an assistant researcher, and teaching yoga who knows when I will have time to even think about how much time I don't have. Aye!

But for now, I'm feeling a brief calm and instead of using my time wisely to prepare for my class, I'm finding myself re-reading old blog entires which in it's own way is very useful for reflection and self-growth. That's the cool thing about having been blogging (relatively) consistently since January 2010.  That's 5 years! A lot has happened in the past five years and it's kinda neat to relive it all through my blog. Some things I read are embarrassing, some hilarious, and some even heart-breaking. 

 I think the greatest lesson to be learned from reading old blog posts is, ironically, contentment (santosha). This idea of contentment is something that I have wrestled with for a long time, hence me naming my blog Santosha. I don't suppose this to be the end of my wrestling, but maybe now I've just been ushered into a new class of wrestling. I've got some insight based on my experiences and how I can now reflect upon what I wrote.

Most importantly, I am amazed at the shift in my happiness or contentment during my time as an ESL Teacher. I started out bright-eyed and bushy tailed, excited about my job and life and somewhere down the line I became disillusioned. I let a desire for more (more money, more education, more degrees, more life experiences, more places to say that I lived in) cloud my vision of just how truly good my situation was. If I remove those desires from the equation, all of which are materialistic or ego-driven (aside from the desire for more life experiences, of course) I can reach the conclusion that I always had everything that I ever needed. Unfortunately, it took giving up those things to realize how truly perfect they were. So, in this sense, I believe it to be impossible for a human to understand contentment unless they have once abused their own understanding of it.  Or like Joni Mitchell said "You don't know what you got till it's gone".  

But, hey, at least now I'm cured of my grass is always greener syndrome.   


Sunday, February 1, 2015

Hawaii!

That's right, we're in Hawaii. Here are a few pics from our first 2 days here. Check out Jason's blog for some cool pictures from our big hike yesterday at Olomana. I didn't take many hiking pictures because I was too concerned with not plummeting to my death.


Our chariot:

Jason learns how to work the top of our convertible

I got lei-d:

A Hawaiian thing

Beautiful scenery

On top of a mountain, Kailua below
Sweat in my eyes

New friends, fun/scary/beautiful hike, best day
Jason showing off

under the tree selfie

Gennie Goo and I

Jason tries to shred some gnar

Breakfast on the beach this morning, Acai bowl, yum

Warm ocean, sand, us

Morning beach walk
Stay tuned for more! It's only Day 2!

Sunday, January 11, 2015

A slightly more superficial goal for 2015

Yes, I want to be more present, appreciative of the moment, thankful, and content. These are all important things that I will strive for in years to come. 

However, I do think it's also important for us to set measurable goals for ourselves at this goal-setting, resolution-making time of year...like losing that last 10 pounds, quitting smoking, running a marathon, reading everyday, or eating more vegetables. Setting goals like this for ourselves has a direct impact on the deeper, dare I say more spiritual, goals. The two go hand in hand.

So, for my 2015 slightly superficial yet very important to me and definitely measurable goal is to get up into a handstand with out the support of a person or a wall and hold it for more than 10 seconds. 

It will look better than this (me, last year attempting to come away from the wall...I think I held it for a micro second):


Monday, January 5, 2015

And Now I'm a Figure Skater

Move over Tanya Harding*...I will not be bashing in anyone's knees to get the gold, but I will be doing some serious spins on the ice.

Check it out:



*PS- Tanya Harding is from Portland, OR. How funny is that?

Saturday, October 18, 2014

It's just too good

to be savored

Have you ever enjoyed reading a book so much so that you didn't actually want to read it?

This is a seldom occurance, but when it does happen it happens hard. I am currently rationing out The Goldfinch page by page because I just don't want it to end. This book is meant to be savored.  I just may never get through it.

I liken this phenomena to when I was a kid, sorting and rationing my halloween candy as if I were preparing for an apocalypse in which candy would never be found upon the Earth again. I would sort by color, genre, and texture, save my favorite pieces for the end, sometimes never even getting to enjoy these bites-the chocolate having gone grey and flakey.

No, I did not grow up during the depression era, instead I just really have an obsession/problem/attachment to never wanting a good thing to end.  At least now, I can recognize this in myself and learn to enjoy the things that I enjoy. The Reese's cup that is The Goldfinch will not go grey and flakey, but instead it will be delicately devoured bite by tiny, bite.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Ukulele Goddess


Jason and I are learning to play the ukulele. I find it much easier than playing the guitar, which I briefly started playing when I was 9 and then again at age 20. Both times resulted in my quitting because my fingers were too small. The ukulele is way more manageable. Additionally, it is cute and slightly hip, which supplies the "cool factor".

Learning how to do something new with a loved one is very gratifying. We play. We sing. We drink beer.  It's a great indoor activity for the rainy, Oregon winer ahead.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Making Progress

Carolina Beach, NC- July 2011
Bikram Yoga Durham Demonstration, NC- May 2012
Oregon Coast- March 2013

Roberts' Lake House Dock, NC- June 2013

Mt. Scott Crater Lake, OR- August 2013

Malibu, CA- October 2013

Eugene, OR- January 2014
Grand Canyon, AZ- May 2014
I've done a lot of Standing Bow Pulling poses in my life thus far. Between the many yoga classes and traveling "take a picture of me in standing bow" indulgences, I can't even begin to count.
However, I can say that I'm making progress. I will straighten my leg. I promise.

Continuously Keep Kicking

Saturday, April 26, 2014

The classic 84

I love Fridays. Naturally, most people love Fridays because it's the end of the work week and they can indulge in happy hour fodder. I love my Fridays for a different reason. My Friday usually consists of hours spent in the hot room practicing the classic 84 postures, otherwise known as "Advanced". The advanced postures were assembled by Bishnu Ghosh many years ago. They are the base from where Bikram derived his 26 postures. On Fridays I get to attempt to do all 84 with my fellow yoga teachers and advanced yogis.
The classic 84 is a difficult series. It tests one's limits of strength and flexibility. One could practice it for years and not get very far at all. It is humbling and beautiful.


Recently, I have experienced a breakthrough in my practice of this series. I got the shoulder rotation on the right side for full dancer pose. It looks a little like this:

The shoulder must fully rotate in its socket in order to grab the foot as pictured in pictures 2 and 3. The final expression of the posture looks like this (with both legs locked out):


Pretty awesome, right? And this is just one posture. The concentration and determination that it takes to continue to practice these postures for years and years in order to merely move one inch forward here and there is one of the most frustrating and motivating things about this practice. That's why I love it!